I cannot count how many times I have said sorry to you for days now and I’m still going to say sorry.
I thought it was fair enough to share my thoughts about you without thinking how it will affect you
I thought I was great enough to say that I am strong because I can put those words into a list where I undeniably thrown you outside the bus
I’ve done a lot of impulsive things since the day you came back
I literally explode when argument takes place between us and I’ve been too inconsiderate about how you feel when you’ve come across my abode
I was too conscious about many things, I’ve been too dramatic and emotional when it comes to you
Because I am, and I will be forever in love with you
I said it before, our story was unfinished, that’s why destiny decided to bring us back together
But I don’t know why I always screw it up
I’m a chronic over-thinker, too sentimental, too exaggerated and too insensitive of how things would end up because of what I am doing
I literally don’t know how to take it back, all those words and one-sided banter I have apparently thrown to you
I am very vulnerable when it comes to you
I am too much to handle
I am different, but I don’t know how to change it
Those lines that I said, that I deserve better than you?
I will never deserve anyone else because the only person that I can and I will love is, you
It may sound silly, yes, I know
After all the stupid words, I said, I don’t even know what to do
And for a fact there is no one waiting there for me, it was just out of impulsive optimism that’s why I said it
I’m so afraid and too self-conscious I admit it, and I apologize for that
I don’t know when will you realize that I fully acknowledge my mistake
But I promise. I’ll be better
Because I cannot see anyone else beside me to complete that unfinished story-line we made except you.